Left to pick up the pieces by Adam Lasko (2020).

 

Now I release the deep-seated secrets traversing in my life. I turn my life back to you and help to bring them back. For there is a mystery that runs deep that I cannot retract. My honesty and truth of what is at stake is holding me as prisoner within my grasp. 

 

I internalize nothing more of which I can match. Once I find a realistic solution to what is bothering me becomes our mission in this draft. 

 

I follow my instincts & awareness to discover the missing pieces that never made any sense. I am haunted by my constant questions, providing a fence that was once broken and a deep history that was suspect. 

 

All I wanted was the truth and the integrity of intent to take control. All I received was greed & manipulation, layered in agreements that were beyond my directed role. 

 

I stand firm in my conviction to make a right choice, providing me with a guiding voice. 

 

In this lifetime, it was "Always Not Right," I wish there was something to change which I could locate in a higher light. 

 

Going deep is my only friend, mending complicated domestic fences was my only trend. 

 

If you stop and listen to what is coming through, you can achieve the hidden mysteries and solving those difficult clues. 

Written by Adam Mtichell Lasko

 

Interruptive cycles surrounded by strangers. (1984-2023).

 

The anger started when I was surrounded by strangers.  There were agreements made in a different direction, a shift from the nuclear-family putting me in an uncomfortable position. 

 

A challenging task was being formed knowing this was not the norm, I was heading down a road filled with ominous-storms.

 

Two sides compromised by an arranger, which did not include a long-term savior. Dealing with a deadly wrath from karmic-fractured-ruins-of-a-distant-past.  

 

It comes down to an invasion of your space, past, and history, while forced into a blended dynamic with individuals who will never last. 

 

It is painstaking accepting these conditions, while the [matriarch] prefers dispensing fiction.

 

There is no honor in struggle or strife, only poor choices made in this life. Pent-up resentment, while tracing the facts with intention.

 

The layers of lies, illusions, and deceptions, conducted by those with questionable decisions. A sense of urgency to take control, aggressively investigating those involved in their roles.

 

The truth comes out when they are gone, while analyzing who was to gain in the long run? 

 

Interruptive-cycles & patterns part two. 

 

Those who know me, cannot see through me.

 

I ponder what is unfair, although my patience remains in despair. 

 

Blindsided by inconsistencies in my search, I question everyone to see my position, for I can rely on those who determined-through-their-own-intuition are. 

 

It is a challenge playing the part when your life-path is consistently being [torn] apart. 

 

All these observations are made from the heart, guided to take action and compelled to restart.  

 

During this process I managed to evolve, however, there are lingering elements that are conveniently un-resolved. 

 

Interruptive cycles--original poem by Adam Lasko (10/17/1994) & (10/7/2023).

 

We are at the precipice of a Full Moon in Taurus (5 degrees) & Lunar Eclipse. (Interruptive-cycles) reflect deep-seated thoughts, impressions, that tend to come to the surface, during the days leading up to the Lunar Eclipse & Full Moon in "determined" Taurus.  

 

Note, gravity is traversing upward, pushing against the energy. A Full Moon energy is an opposition between the Sun in (Scorpio) & the Moon in (Taurus). However, the Moon in Taurus is (exalted), which means it acts like a (silver-lining) given the amount of tension involved. 

 

The energy from this transit is both powerful and transformational. Full Moon & Lunar Eclipse represents a culmination of--events, unearthing secrets, epiphanies, conclusions, and illuminations to aspects hidden. At the same time, providing finality or a dramatic ending. A specific door needs to be closed, or something being eclipsed out of your path.

 

The Moon is ruled by (Cancer) and the 4^th House of-home & family, family traditions, family legacies, your mother, the past, early childhood memories, land, leases, rentals, mines, real-estate transactions, your living foundation, dealing with your moods, emotions, feelings, acting crabby, including your domestic sector. The (Crab) is working overtime during this Full Moon & Lunar Eclipse processing the entire history.  

 

Astrological House Astrology

 

 

 

Scattered-Shattered-And-Incomplete.

 

Original poem by Adam M. Lasko

 

5/15/2024

 

There was a sense of [instability] before it took place. Tracing the darker themes, traversing in a never-ending pace. All the players were slightly off, in an unconventional path, repeating their own karmic wrath.

 

Extreme levels of confusion, used their words and actions wrapped in total delusion. Abandoned and isolated from facts, which could have eliminated problems that lie in their tracks. Saturn's influence was stern, restricting, filled with obstacles unforgiving.

 

A life-time on reflecting there is no guarantee in sincerity, only flexibility in extending the truth. A shining star found its way above the noise, relying on instincts from a comforting voice.

 

The same story-lines become cyclical under a dysfunctional-pattern, wishing for a protective-shield under conditions that were not random.

 

There was a large amount of frenetic energy pouring out of her aura, too overwhelming to ground in her glory. A bolt of lightning running off in different directions, ambitious to a fault, compulsive in the department with overreactions and guilt.

 

Sadness is a reminder of what should have been done, instead making poor choices/decisions on the run.

 

I was in the right to be suspicious, considering the level of the [pernicious] activity included in this life-time.

 

There is a quiet space of comfort/ease, which becomes the friend in recovery from the disease. Just a single moment of relief, from complex problems and systemic grief.

 

Caught between the undercurrents I witnessed that were fake, in addition to those who were conveniently absent during her wake. It is impossible to take care of your physical-medical needs, when you're surrounded by thieves.

 

When I witness the Cardinals in nature, her nearness calms my fears. Working on healing these wounds reversing those well-earned tears. Deep seated secrets that have plagued me for years.

 

She was at her best, connected to something that was filled with wisdom within the nest. For I witnessed a rare glimpse of happiness and security, only in the memory of her father's request.

 

A short-term relief, from the battles and disappointments with people in the future who did not honor their so-called beliefs.

 

Nobody understands the position regarding my indefatigable task, especially when dealing in the dreary aftermath.

 

The road in life is [inconsistent], for things will most likely require to bend. In many ways you never thought of as long as you are [cognizant] of who is on the mend.

 

The sheets of rainfall is [wise] washing away the pain while putting you in hypnotic-phase, placing you in a deep-sleep connected to profound dreams as you welcome in those familiar visitors who-have-something-to-say.

 

 

Scattered-Shattered-And-Incomplete.

 

Original poem by Adam M. Lasko

 

5/15/2024